Instead of Light & Dark, Let's Call it Dark


It’s deep down inside me from long ago.
channeled at him, my dad, little Jenny-me and God, All of US!
Rage Blooms within ME! Rage
Blooms
within
ME
I buried the anger in the desert
covered it with beautiful magenta flowered cactus, cutting
my finger on the sharp needles
of self - doubt
Labeling myself average, unorganized, chubby.

 Growing up
 I was
 Angry about
 His infidelity
The photos of him with another 
 Moms blindness
Type 1 diabetes
Me, sighted guide at the White Sands Mall
Who will we run into from my sixth grade social circle?
This is about the time being different turns to discomfort
Age 12, setting insulin in needles when he is on fake fishing trips or supposed lions conventions 
Anger over What I could not control
No one seeks out/uncovers why my grades plummet 
 “RAGE BLOOMS WITHIN ME!”

 My eyes have it. Camouflage, golden green swirl, metallic.
 My eyes are a bath tub to wash in, a swimming pool of acrylic war paint
 Roll over
I am covered in tattoos only I can see.
It's been years now!
Today
No Secrets, 
 Leave with a natural shine
 TAKE ALL OF ME.
 Triumph is built on
 going there to
 “Rage Blooms Within ME!”
I am proud to make this grand announcement.




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