Dear Jennifer


To My Inner Self: What would you like to reveal to me tonight?

What do I need to know for January 22, 2015?

For almost February, for the role of Professional Me,

Poet, Career Changer, Daughter, Wife.

Change will happen for the better like I am

grown up, like I am 37, content, satisfied, achiever of success.

Am I pushing too hard?

I confront pain, victimhood, time, and ego.


 

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